There are things we'd all like to change about ourselves or, at the very least, aren't completely satisfied with. At 5'7, I'm not very tall for a nineteen year old male. Most girls are around my height and in heels easily surpass it. There's nothing I can really do about that. I can, however, do something about scrawniness. When people think of the idea of dieting, thoughts of large people on treadmills tend to come up. In reality, though, I myself am struggling with a diet and exercise routine at the moment and, I'm ashamed to admit, failing. Sure, I've made a few gains, but it's nowhere near the kind I'd hoped to have made and I simply don't feel like I've completely done enough.
When I first got home for spring break I weighed 116 pounds, meaning I was underweight. I'm always been on the skinny side. Being underweight, however, wasn't the issue, the issue was that I was tired of being both short and small. I decided I wanted to gain weight and start exercise to build muscle. It's worked to an extent, I changed my diet and found a gym buddy and made a few gains in weight lifting and weight gain. I currently weigh 122, just over the threshold for normal weight at my height. The problem now, though, is that not only have I gotten sidetracked from my diet and have stopped gaining weight, but I am also finding it really hard to make gains at the gym, probably due to the problem of not eating to support muscle growth. While when flexing, I do look a lot better, I still haven't reached any noticeable gains yet. I'm still pressing in the same weight range as I was about a month back. I've hit a plateau and it's discouraging. These next few weeks are going to be telling. It's not really just a matter of whether or not I look the way I want or how many pounds I gain (although I am aiming for 125 at the moment), it's about asserting that yes, I can control some aspects of my life and feel good. It's about being down and being able to make a goal, and carrying those vibes over into my art and schoolwork.
I've drafted out a new diet consisting of calorie, protein, and carb-rich foods such as corned beef hash, eggs, oatmeal, and yogurt. I've tried to find as many ways to get the most out of my meals as humanly possible such as by using whole milk as opposed to skim and using it for oatmeal rather than water, by scrambling eggs into my hash, and by adding Propel to a bottle of water for a few extra calories and to ensure that I consume at least three cups of water a day. I've scheduled upper, lower, and full body days three days a week and decided to alternate my upper body Saturdays between dumbbells and barbells so that I can better work surrounding muscles while pushing more weight (not that I'm pushing much to begin with). This is more or less a message to myself ensuring that I actually stick it through. Cheers to change.